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Anatomy of an affair Pt. 8 – If the Lyrics Fit

January 12, 2014

As most of you know, my life could be a musical made up of love songs. While listening to the radio this morning, I came to realize there’s quite a few that can tell the story of the passion and strain of an affair.

You start off with passion. Sexual arousal fills the air and all you want is to rip each other’s clothes off. You can’t keep your hand’s off each other and hardly stay dressed if left in the same room for more than five minutes.

Once in a long-term affair, you find yourself connecting on so many levels. You know you’re unbalanced, but being with him/her makes you feel safe and secure. Walking the delicate line between immersing yourself in his soul and knowing he’ll never be all yours.

You find yourself with uncontrollable desire for your lover. You’re checking your email and phone constantly wondering if he’s trying to reach you. You’ll take whatever risks to see him. The thought of him drives you wild. You wish you could shout it to the mountain tops the thrill and excitement you feel.

Passion fills your days. You can’t get enough of each other and you begin to believe you own the world.

That time in the relationship you know you’re only a mistress and lover, but you don’t want the affair to end. You bargain with yourself. With him. Hoping you can fool yourself into believing there’s so much more than this physical touch

Then there comes a time when you realize no matter how fantastic the sex, you want something more. Something deeper. More permanent. You understand the love you have for your lover, it can’t fill you the way you want.

Alas, you find yourself at the end of the rollercoaster love you shared.

What’s on your affair playlist? I’m sure I’ve missed a stage along the way. It’s funny how I’ll hear a song and think of what was, then hear another and think what could have been. All I know is they are good memories. Ones I wouldn’t give up.

3 Comments leave one →
  1. January 24, 2014 10:09 pm

    My list looks so much different than this one…

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